It really has been a while since I updated, so I might as well do it now.

Well, anyway, schools started back up, not really too excited about it, my algebra 2 teacher is a dick, seriously. I enrolled in this college class our school does, basically they ship us off to another school, to take a class for 2 hours. I'm taking Computer Communications and Networking Technicians class, with a web design class every Monday and Wednesday. Its pretty fun. I basically get college credit for what I've been doing my whole life, taking apart computers.

Not really a whole lot to talk about, except my web design class is giving me tips on my own web site, pretty nifty.

Well, that's it for today, maybe I'll get more ideas to write about some other time.

~Foxen

*sigh*
Sure has been a while since I last posted anything...just been so busy getting ready for school and all. And I was at my dad's house, with almost no way to get on the internet, I mean sure I could use my phone for mobile posting, but typing took way to long to get anything else done durring the day...

I'm right in the middle of band camp, it lasts two weeks, and I'm starting my second one. Hard work, gotta get up at 7, be there and ready by 8, march for 4 1/2 hours, then sections for 30 mins. Ugh... It gets so hard to do anything else durring the day, really drains my energy. But I gotta be prepared for football games when they start up, and they start up soon.

School starts next week, I'm thinking about starting up a website at the beggining of the year, just to kick off the school year. I'm probably gonna use on of those free web-hosting sites, like Lycos.com, I used them before, totally free, I could go with that. It'll be the most kickass website on the net, and you'll love every visit. :3 I'll link to my Livejournal, and other sites, and post a little info about me. I'll finally have a website to put in those "your website" areas on my social networks. :D

I also recently bought a Nintendo Wii, and am typing this post via the Internet Channel, very handy. Although Youtube tends to be a bit laggy, everything seems to be working out, only wish I could save photos and other miscellaneous files to my SD card, would make the Photo Channel more useful, but oh well...

*sigh* ...I miss him...even though I talk to him everyday...i still miss him. I just wish I could hold him right now, I almost feel like crying...I just wish these two long years will finally be over with, so I can be with him forever...he means so much to me...

Thats all I have to say...

Well...I've been thinking for a while, and I finally got up the courage to go to Walmart with one of my friends, and she helped me pick out a collar. :3

Now, I'm no ones "pet", and I'm not bondagy, I'm just going to wear it for fun, but I'm waiting on an ID tag to actually wear it. I bought the tag from a pet store, but they don't have a machine, so what they do is fill out a forum asking for your information, what you want engraved on the tag, etc., and they fax it to a company that makes the tags, the company then sends the completed tag to your home address. I'm just afraid that my mom will get to the tag before I do, its no big deal really, I'm just waiting on the tag so that when I start wearing it in front of my family it doesn't appear as a bondage thing, but it is BLATANTLY a dog collar, and not a bondage collar, but my moms a goof, so... :D

My friend thought it looked really cool, and says the ID tag would look even cooler with it. I just got a simple square tag, with my nickname and my cell phone number. All in all I spent arount $20 for the whole thing, which is actually not that bad considering the collarfactory.com makes fabulous collars, but they cost like, 50-70 bucks for a basic one.

My family doesn't know I'm a furry, however, they do know I'm bisexual, so they might just think its one of my "things" that I do, so I really don't think they'll flip out to bad. :P I'm really excited though, I can't wait to finally wear it! :D The only problem I have with the collar itself is that the packaging kept it folded over itself, and leather tends to grab a shape and hold it, so its got a couple bends in it. I just curled it up and wrapped it in a rubber band, hoping that it will kinda coil around itself. Cause a coiled collar is better than one that looks like a square, right? Right?! ...

Thought so...

So now I just wait for the tag, should be in by monday, too bad, cause at that time I'll be on vacation with my dad, so I won't be there to snag it when it comes. :( Looks like my mom will find it anyway, hopefully she'll see it has my name on it, and respect my privacy, cause shes cool like that. ;)

Been a while since I've felt this good. School ends tomorrow, all my friends are still here, I feel much more calm and confident in myself for revealing my sexuality, and even better, for the past month or so I've been dating this really nice guy. :D

Hes such a sweetie, a big cudde bug, just like me! :3 And hes just generally fun to be around. Hes so smart and funny, I love him so much. <3 The only problem...he lives quite a ways away, like several states over. :( Hes 16 years old, like me (his birthday is only a few weeks from mine), so it doesn't look like he'll be able to drive over here any time soon, and neither will I. We're hoping that when we get into college that we'll be able to visit each other, I hope we can.

Finnally, that day every 5-11 grader counts down to, THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! Its here tomorrow, and I can't wait! My summers looking pretty bland though, but I'm going to try an experiment...

Over the summer, I'm going to try to completely FLIP my day by changing my sleeping patterns, only waking durring the day to eat with the family. I've tried this before, it didn't really work cause I could never get to sleep on time, but I'm going to try it again, just for fun.

But, yeah I'm real happy for the summer, I'll get to spend more time talking to my boy, and just generally louging about. So yeah...

Oh, and incidentaly, if there is anyone out there actually reading this, you should follow me on twitter! @sethfoxen
I update this a few times a day, and some more followers would be nice, just to know someone out there is interested in what I say. :P

¡Adios, amigos! <('w')>

It rained today...made me think of the first time I kissed him, my mate, Jason, that is. We were out on the town, and grabbed some ice cream. I ordered a strawberry cone, he ordered a swirl, and as we sat down, he kissed my cheek softly... At the time, I thought nothing of it, and sat down across from him at the booth. We enjoyed our ice cream there, and talked about life. The look on his face made me so happy, but only when I'm with him...

It was getting dark as we left the ice cream parlor, he told me to grab onto his neck once we got outside, so I did, and we started flying through the night sky. As we soared through the air, feeling the wind through my fur, I wrapped my legs around his waist happily. Flying through the air, all my cares seem to disappear, when I'm with him...

He found a high-rise building close by, so we glided in for the roof. As we landed, I hugged him tightly, and we sat down, and began talking. We sat on that roof quite a while, watching the clouds roll in. As it started to sprinkle, he held me close in his lap, such strong, powerful hands... I felt his warming touch, his embrace, so calming, when I'm with him...

We watched the rain fall down around us, the puddles forming on the rooftop. I looked up at him as he looked down at me. I shied away, looking down. He had no clue what I felt about him, that I knew of... He made me so happy that day, and just thinking about a life time with him filled me with such silent joy. I wanted to kiss him, but I didn't know if he wanted to or not, so I just let it go. The joy I felt that night was like no other, when I was with him...

The rain had gotten harder, so he gave me a flight to the bottom of the building. We stood there, in the rain, when it happened...

He took my hands, and asked softly "Can I kiss you?" I didn't know what to say, in a fumbled nervous wreck, all I could get out was a simple "Yes." But that's all he needed, and we leaned in, and kissed, as the rain fell upon us. It was the happiest day of my life, I'll never forget that day. And it makes me so happy, to know that now, I'm with him...

Keeping with the slight oddity of my latest posts, I've used a few lines from Mr. Roboto, just cause they kinda fit in there... Yeah, Styx rule..

 

The problem's plain to see

Too much technology

Machines to save our lives

Machines de-humanize...

 

The public wants everyone to be the same, thinking that if we're all the same, there would be no conflicts in the world. But by trying to make everyone the same, the conflicts just rise...

 

There are so many different people out there, so many different races, beliefs, all clumped together into two sexes.

 

Races: So many, Native American, African American, Hispanic, Caucasian, yet...all American here in the states, but still, separated by some... Why? Aren't we all different, yet the same? As Americans, we have the right to be different, why be something you're not? Life should be about living free, about being who you want to be, without being pushed down by others. Why must we separate each other because they look different?

 

Beliefs: Again, so many, Christian, Jewish, Atheist, Buddhist, but still, all accepted here in the states...mostly. So many people believe so many different things, are they all wrong? Some religions worship one god, some worship many, yet even others pay respect to no god at all, yet all claim to be the "right way to go." How can we tell which one really IS the right way to go? Some say religion doesn't exist, some say religion is a way of life, but which is right? Just because someone believes something you don't, doesn't automatically make them wrong...

 

Sexes: What can I say about this? There's only two...but still, so many people will shun others because of something they had no say in. Sure, now these days, you can get surgeries, but whats it all for, really? Why change who you are? You were born that way, you should be proud!

 

The time has come at last

To throw away this mask

Now everyone can see

My true identity!

 

I've lived a good life so far, many friends, great family, all different in their own way. Different races, believes, sexes, yet all still friends in my eyes. Others say they are weird, and don't deserve to live, some say this about themselves, yet, they are still my friends. My friends are the greatest people I could ever know, they're so fun to be around, and very understanding, so, I come to the point of this post...

 

The reason I wrote this, was to tell all my friends and family, that I'm bisexual.

 

But really, I don't see how it makes any difference, all my friends have known me for so long, I'm not going to change just because you know more about me. Its like finding out your friends favorite color, it doesn't really change the relationship you have with your friend, it may help make a few decisions, like what color wrapping paper to get for Christmas, but you usually don't go through some life altering change.

 

To all my friends out there: I'm still me, always will be, I'll never change. I know something like this can come as quite a shock, but come on, you really didn't expect me to be normal, did you? I'm probably the least normal person at school!

 

To my family out there: ...Its weird, I know, but I'd like to skip the awkward talks, I'm not good with things like that. Its always hard to tell family members things like this, and the embarrassing conversations are, well..just plain embarrassing, for everyone.

 

To everyone: Now, just because I'm bisexual, doesn't mean I'm going to be rubbing up against every guy and girl I find, I still have my dignity (or mainly whats left of it), and I don't care what you think about my choices. If you have a problem with it, just come to me about it.

 

I've decided to post again, don't know why, I couldn't think of what to post about.
Posting from my phone again, had a little trouble with it the other day. I was minding my own business, texting a friend, when all of a sudden my phone shut off, and restarted. I have never seen it do that before, and it scared my half to death, so I waited out the restart, but when it turned back on, it said 'INTITIAL PROGRAMMING NEEDED' in big bold letters accross the screen. Now this, made me dizzy. So, I did what any sane person would do, I grabbed the nerest working phone, and called customer support. (thank god I remebered, 1-800-ALLTEL1)
Turns out, since Verizon bought Alltel, they were doing some updates on there end, service wise, and my phone got confused, thinking it was reset. After about 20 minutes of crappy hold music and advertisments, I finnaly got a hold of a support tech, and we worked this out, so my phone is back to normal, hoping it doesn't happen again.
Well, apparently, I only have about 10-13 days of school left, this makes me pretty confident, seeing as how I made it this far without doing something utterly stupid. Summer break is a big bore though, I go to my dad's house durring the summer, and at the moment, he has NO INTERNET AT ALL! He has dial-up service, but something happened, I'm not entirely sure on the details, but his phone cord got cut, so we have no access to our internet, or phone line. The major things I usully do can be done on my cell phone now, but those other things (like mucking) can't be done on my phone. I hope he gets it straightened out by the time schools over.
Well, I really have nothing else to say here, so I guess this is the end, thanks for taking an interest in my blog, add me to here the stories of my life.

Adios, amigos. <('w')>

Well, it looks like I can post to LJ on my phone, the good thing is that I'm using the email app on my phone, instead of texting it in, so I get some 8000 odd character input, instead of the usual 150, cause my phone doesn't like multi-page texts. I really like this email app on my phone, however, it doesn't download attachments, or even give me the option to. I could just log-in to the Gmail mobile site, and do it there, but whats the use in the email app if I'm just going to go to the website anyway. Well, I don't get attachments much, I guess I could get the attachments from the site. I had a little trouble in the begining, it didn't want to accept one of my MANY email address, the one that I use to register to websites like facebook.com. But, I eventually got it all figured out. I went around all my social sites turning the mobile settings off, since it just sends a text to my phone, and if I'm getting an email too, thats kinda redundant. I like being able to blog anywhere I want, let my friends know whats happening on my end of the tubes. I recently signed up for twitter, just so I could easily update my facebook status (facebook doesn't like my phone number, and I couldn't get any of the texts with the code to register it, so I can't send facebook anything).
Well, I guess this is the part where I beg for people to watch me.
I will lighten you day, with funny jokes, lewd remarks, and just general weird things. This blog will get real odd when people start watching, I tend to act a little strange around people, so this is where I vent my odd life.

Well, this is the end, for now...
Adios amigos! <('w')>

This is just a test to see how easy it is to post from my mobile email application. If this works correctly, expect to see more posts about recent activities.

I recently received a Samsung Delve when my contract ran out, and I updated. In fact, I'm using it to post this right now. I quite enjoy it. I got the unlimited data plan, which means; unlimited text, unlimited internet/email/chat, free nights after 7pm, and unlimited tv. I can also connect the phone to my computer with the included data cable, and connect to the internet anywhere I get a cell reception. I have cramed a playlist of my favorite songs on a 2gig microSD card (which still has a buttload of space on it) and plugged it in. I think I'm gonna quit using my Zune, its been acting bugy anyway. The only problem I have with it, is that the virtual keyboad is a little small, and can take some getting used to, but other than that, I have get to find a major problem with it. I would recomend this phone to anyone who wants a good phone thats plays mp3s, and a fun touch screen.

Well, guess I'd just stop by to pour half of my life so far into this journal...

I recently took a liking to Linux operating systems, most notably Ubuntu, and have opted to dual-booting it along side my XP, and I'm very pleased with the results. It took a while to get it to work correctly, but I got it eventually. I'm currently running the new Ubuntu 9.04 Jaunty Jackalope on a 30 gig partition. I like it, but wouldn't use it as my primary OS just yet, I still have things that I can only run on Windows, but that will soon be fixed.

A while back, I received a graphics tablet for christmas. I LOVE that thing, but unfortunately, I dropped it a few days ago, and its been all jittery, and I am thickly pissed. I'm going to check out the insides some time, maybe I can see whats wrong once I get in there.

Apparently, something has happened to my 'B' key on my laptops keyboard, as it only works when a fair amount of pressure is applied. I have yet to check this problem out, but I am amazed at how little I actually use the key itself.

A few years ago I purchased one of those Motorola Razors. At the time, it was ALLL the hype, but now, it has gone to junk. The thing has been dropped so many times it amazes me every time I receive a call and it works. The outer screens cracked, and likes to randomly flip upside-down, and sometimes fails to work at all. The internal screen often shows up as just a white screen, and flickers violently. Fortunately, I will be getting a 'Delve' after all the good reviews from my friends. I hope this new one will last me a few years.

I have recently found it harder to concentrate on a single subject. The problem has gotten so out of hand, that I can't even concentrate when I'm alone (normally when I would be able to travel the world in my mind, now only leaves me a few blocks from my home before something else catches my eye). Usually I'll just sit there and day-dream about my life, basically playing through a movie, when out of nowhere...

BAM!

"What is the actual formula to find pi?"
"How many times have a flushed the toilet in my life?"
"What was that guys name from the Verizon commercials?"
"Where did they come up with the idea for the jolly green giant?"
"That girl on the mortons salt containers HAS to have a name... I think its Sally?"

And then I'm right back there, a few seconds behind in my movie. So I go over it again, when I hit that spot, it happens again! It sucks, can't concentrate on anything for more than 5 minutes before being interrupted by my own mind. I like to think, my mind used to be my own little place where I can escape any situation, now, it seems I'm trying to find more ways to keep myself preoccupied to get away from my mind. I used to meditate, but I can't now, and it sucks cause I've been feeling drained lately.

I've had all the medication, some of them just made me skinny and tired, others didn't do anything at all. I don't know why I'm like this, I eat healthy, try to exercise, but I just can't keep my mind off other things. I tried isolating myself from everything; turning off my computer and cell phone, leaving the MP3 player on the shelf, and just laying on my bed, thinking. Sometimes I can get somewhere, but I'm usually pulled away by some tiiiiny distraction, usually I remember that I have to do something, or someone calls my name. I rarely have any time to myself, and when I do, its usually a short amount of time. I don't know why, but my life is so demanding. People say 'Oh, you're just a teenager, get a job and tell me how hard it is.' But you better believe me, its hard. Highschool is such a bore, the same thing, over, and over, and over...
No wonder its hard to concentrate.

Well, that about wraps up this entry, until next time. Farewell amigos! <('w')>

I've decided to try out this email posting feature here. I think it
kinda defeats the purpose though. Think about it, if you have access to
your email account, I'm pretty sure you would have access to a web
browser. But, of course, there is the addition of using your cell
phone. Oh! Lookie here! There is a separate feature allowing you to do
EXACTLY THAT!!


How convenient.



I do, however, see the advantages here. Doing it from school, don't
have to go through the hassle of opening a web browser, its a little
easier in my opinion, and its kinda fun. I might use this feature
again, just for kicks, or maybe in a practical situation.



Oh well, have fun out there on the interwebosphere.

-

Zee Fox

I've decided to open up with an emo subject, I thought since it looked like I was about to kill myself, more people would read this. *shrug*

I have found this website in an effort to completely isolate myself from everyone I know. As far as my understanding, non of my friends have found this website, although I'm sure they will, and since I put my real address and real email address, they may stumble upon my journal, in an effort to pass the time. If they do, I hope they read this post first.

I've never actually written in a journal/blog to just have the fun in writing in one, I usually write in them to get something off my chest, rant, be silly, or just inform the general public about myself. My myspace has gotten pretty out of hand (blogs out the wazoo, friends I don't care about, un-updated profile) so I guess I came here to pretty much grab a clean slate. So, I guess I'll introduce myself...

My name is Jarrod Pfeiffer, I am a 15 year old male in high school, trying to escape the terror of my life. I love technology, and am hoping for a job in the computer technician field. I listen to music constantly, except when I'm watching movies, etc... I love making friends, and am highly outgoing. Some would say that I'm outlandish, and weird, but I am actually relatively intelligent. If you look at my profile pic, you can see, that I am, in fact, a furry. (Don't give me any shit for it neither, I don't care what you think about it, different people have different opinions, and I for one will not tolerate rude remarks or slander against me, and no, I will not yiff you) I have been part of the furry fandom for a year or so, I draw, but I'm not too great at it. I do enjoy a good role-playing session, and I am part of the muck 'FurryMUCK.' (If you want more info on my character, just message me)

I would like to gather as many friends as I can on this network, whether they be random people I don't know, or friends from my life. I tend to get rather close to my friends, and I won't become just anyone's friend, I want to get to know you! If you want to be my friend, send me an invite, and message me, talk to me, get to know me, all that good junk.

As you can see, I tend to write rather long posts, I like to write, it is a way of expressing myself, and there is a lot to express about me. Most of the posts I will be making may be controversial, (if there was way for me to set these posts as controversial, then I would) and some people out there may have strong opinions about what I write about, I believe these opinions should be heard! Comment on my posts, about any thoughts you have over them, but please, don't dump your hate upon my journal. If you have a specific comment about a very touchy subject, watch your words, I will not have any hate comments or 'flamers' on my posts.

I would like to congratulating on making it this far in my post, very few people care enough to read most of it, but I am at my end here.

If you have any questions about me, or any comments, just leave a message! I will gladly talk to you!